Andy Kopciuch's Blog
Saturday, January 27, 2007
I'm Going Insane
Prepare for the vent!
I have way too much shit rolling around in my head! In addition to that I'm in a shitty mood, and have been for quite sometime. Sure I'm over being sick for an entire month, and what do I have to look forward to as soon as I am better? Having my limbs pulled in every direction possible.
Let's see what I've been up to? Built my own debian 3 kolab security rpms, because the kolab group are wankers and "don't have any clients on debian 3.0 anymore". Done several dist-upgrades to dapper each with their own oddities. Bombarded with "Can you add this on the website" emails. "Can we add this feature to the system?" conversations. I've built new servers sitting here beside me. Chased down domain problems because other providers are fuck wads and moved domains without telling the owner cuz they get a kick back at another registrar. I've been to several new client meetings. I've investigated unfamiliar technologies to see if data conversions are possible. I've trouble shot servers, and firewalls, and network problems. "I get this SSL error saying the server doesn't support SMTP + SSL". Well if you hadn't changed the firewall to block the traffic on port 465 it wouldn't be a fuckin problem now would it? Oh yeah ... and meanwhile I've written a system to do motorcycle insurance policies.
I'm grumpy. I am in a never ending world of my todo list and people nagging at me. With all of that going on work related, everything else in my life is just compounding on my unhealthy mental state. So I try to relax and play some poker then maybe I can be calm enough to tackle some work ... WRONG! Lets finish in the bubble boy spot in 3 tournaments in a row (last guy out before you can win any money). So now I want to throw the monitor across the room. I forgot that my internet periodically just shuts off for a while, and the modem can not connect. So lets call Shaw once again, and have a fourth technician booked to come out.
Lets see here ... what else can I bitch about? Oh yeah ... the crazy lady in my building is now knocking on my door every couple of days. I know it's her because no one else comes to see me, and I haven't buzzed anyone in. I just don't even answer the door, but it annoys the shit out of me. My kitchen sink tap is now in very bad shape and turned a full 90 backwards to shut off, but the plumber is hard to get a hold off apparently. My car seat is still fucked, and I need to get that fixed. GST return is due in 5 days and I have not even started my accounting. I have to go and chase down some paperwork, and get a cheque from someone. The first cheque had a problem, and now I can not seem to hook up and get the new one (they are not avoiding I must say ... just playing phone tag, and scheduling issues). I have not bought new clothes in like 2 years ... and I just realized some of my pants have a _HUGE_ rip right in the ass. A non-fixable rip I might add.
I was offered to go to Scotland with the pipe band, and spent a bunch of time making some changes to the drum scores so they are prepared to make a run at the contest, some of the drummers didn't take to making changes ... IN JANUARY! when the worlds is not until mid August. Stupid lazy fuckin drummers. wah! I don't wanna learn something new in 6 months. Not to mention there's a big shitload of police / band politics about who is going on the trip now, and I might not even go. It's a wait and see ... and honestly I really don't feel like putting in any effort whatsoever to make it happen. If I can't go because of stupid shit ... then fuck em.
I am really on edge, and I'm scared that the slightest thing is going to set me off soon. I just realized today that my plan was to get back into going to the gym in September. Take mornings for myself. Well 5 months later, and I am so far away from that plan it's not even a glint on the horizon. There is not enough tea in the whole world to calm me down right now.
I must say that I am thankful that my arm is not broken. A girlfriends father did not shoot me in the back (My friend from back home : James Hayward, rest in peace). I am not going through a break up with a significant other. I have a warm place to sleep, and my grievances are really minor in a humanity scope. Just don't be the next person who cuts me off in traffic.
Maybe I'll go into the office to work tomorrow. A change of scenery could help.
*sigh* ... pounds fist on desk ... *ouch* ΒΆ 11:05:00 PM 0 comments
I have way too much shit rolling around in my head! In addition to that I'm in a shitty mood, and have been for quite sometime. Sure I'm over being sick for an entire month, and what do I have to look forward to as soon as I am better? Having my limbs pulled in every direction possible.
Let's see what I've been up to? Built my own debian 3 kolab security rpms, because the kolab group are wankers and "don't have any clients on debian 3.0 anymore". Done several dist-upgrades to dapper each with their own oddities. Bombarded with "Can you add this on the website" emails. "Can we add this feature to the system?" conversations. I've built new servers sitting here beside me. Chased down domain problems because other providers are fuck wads and moved domains without telling the owner cuz they get a kick back at another registrar. I've been to several new client meetings. I've investigated unfamiliar technologies to see if data conversions are possible. I've trouble shot servers, and firewalls, and network problems. "I get this SSL error saying the server doesn't support SMTP + SSL". Well if you hadn't changed the firewall to block the traffic on port 465 it wouldn't be a fuckin problem now would it? Oh yeah ... and meanwhile I've written a system to do motorcycle insurance policies.
I'm grumpy. I am in a never ending world of my todo list and people nagging at me. With all of that going on work related, everything else in my life is just compounding on my unhealthy mental state. So I try to relax and play some poker then maybe I can be calm enough to tackle some work ... WRONG! Lets finish in the bubble boy spot in 3 tournaments in a row (last guy out before you can win any money). So now I want to throw the monitor across the room. I forgot that my internet periodically just shuts off for a while, and the modem can not connect. So lets call Shaw once again, and have a fourth technician booked to come out.
Lets see here ... what else can I bitch about? Oh yeah ... the crazy lady in my building is now knocking on my door every couple of days. I know it's her because no one else comes to see me, and I haven't buzzed anyone in. I just don't even answer the door, but it annoys the shit out of me. My kitchen sink tap is now in very bad shape and turned a full 90 backwards to shut off, but the plumber is hard to get a hold off apparently. My car seat is still fucked, and I need to get that fixed. GST return is due in 5 days and I have not even started my accounting. I have to go and chase down some paperwork, and get a cheque from someone. The first cheque had a problem, and now I can not seem to hook up and get the new one (they are not avoiding I must say ... just playing phone tag, and scheduling issues). I have not bought new clothes in like 2 years ... and I just realized some of my pants have a _HUGE_ rip right in the ass. A non-fixable rip I might add.
I was offered to go to Scotland with the pipe band, and spent a bunch of time making some changes to the drum scores so they are prepared to make a run at the contest, some of the drummers didn't take to making changes ... IN JANUARY! when the worlds is not until mid August. Stupid lazy fuckin drummers. wah! I don't wanna learn something new in 6 months. Not to mention there's a big shitload of police / band politics about who is going on the trip now, and I might not even go. It's a wait and see ... and honestly I really don't feel like putting in any effort whatsoever to make it happen. If I can't go because of stupid shit ... then fuck em.
I am really on edge, and I'm scared that the slightest thing is going to set me off soon. I just realized today that my plan was to get back into going to the gym in September. Take mornings for myself. Well 5 months later, and I am so far away from that plan it's not even a glint on the horizon. There is not enough tea in the whole world to calm me down right now.
I must say that I am thankful that my arm is not broken. A girlfriends father did not shoot me in the back (My friend from back home : James Hayward, rest in peace). I am not going through a break up with a significant other. I have a warm place to sleep, and my grievances are really minor in a humanity scope. Just don't be the next person who cuts me off in traffic.
Maybe I'll go into the office to work tomorrow. A change of scenery could help.
*sigh* ... pounds fist on desk ... *ouch* ΒΆ 11:05:00 PM 0 comments
